Because I can't be this Whiny on FaceBook.

ahhmytsunami:

Dean Winchester has given me unrealistic expectations of men.

I need to stop creepin’ on people’s facebook pages. I’m such a stalker sometimes (all the time.)

I suck. But on the upside my roommate and I went to French Press and got crepes. Best thing ever.

I just got really annoyed with my pity party. I’m not forever alone guy, and I’m not lonely. I have friends and I have family and if I don’t have a boyfriend that’s okay. 

Oh man, I feel like the forever alone guy. My roommate just asked for the room for romantic time during Valentines day. She didn’t do it meanly and she said I didn’t have to if I didn’t want to, but she and her boyfriend are really good about not being in the room a lot, whereas I’m here a lot more than she is, so I feel like it’s fair that if she wants the room one night. But I’m gonna have to ask my friends if they have plans and if they want to do something or hang out so that I have a place to go after the City Council Meeting. I feel like I should do this to be a good roommate, because it’s her room too and she’s never asked for anything. I wish…Boys weren’t so picky and/or I was more confident. Cause I’m not. I’m a lot better than I used to be, I used to be really shy, but now I can talk to strangers in my classes and assert myself. But when it comes to asking guys out, there really only one guy I talk often enough to the courage to do that and A. I wouldn’t want to ruin our friendship when he said no and things got awkward and B. I’m don’t really like him like that. I’m pretty sure that this confusion I feel is really just a proximity crush. 

I feel a bit guilty, cause I don’t think I was supposed to see that.

I fucking hate small talk. 

I play Dungeons and Dragons. It’s a great game, the best part board games and video games combined. I am however the only girl in a group of six or seven (depending on  the day) other guys. For the most part I enjoy the game but there is something that infuriates me, and it’s not in the game, but more in the speech of my fellow players. They frequently use the word “rape”. Now I’m a gamer, I know that in gamer-speak “rape” is a phrase that often just means that instead killing you, I’m going to slaughter you. The usage irritates me but that’s not the part that fills me with rage. It’s when they use the word in it’s appropriate context, like the fact that two of the guys in the group casually mentioned that their characters rape women, they said it as a joke and the rest of the group laughed. It was casual, it was a joke. Now you can make all sorts of arguments about how that the “rape” was not against real women. But what kind of culture are we living in when a group of college-educated adults make a joke out of the worst thing that can be done to a person. It is not always said explicitly, my parents never once mentioned rape, but I was raised to be scared of strangers, male strangers in particular, just through subtle environmental clues. We live in a culture where women are raised to be scared of rape, and men treat it as a joke. What society that claims to respect women as equal human beings would allow that?